My Journey

This last summer has been one of the most difficult I have experienced. I wish I didn't have to say that, but acceptance is the first step to changing. Right? Devan and I have experienced some very trying times; emotionally, financially, spiritually, and in relationships. Fortunately, none of our trials have been medical. Our good health is a true blessing at this time in our lives. Some may think that I am sharing too much about my life. Others may not care. I want to explain why I am blogging about, "My Journey". For the last 3-4 months I have tried to carry everything on my shoulders and to solve all our trials and troubles. Devan has been working on them as well, please don't get me wrong. There is two particular things I know I need to do on a daily basis that will help me overcome the depression that I have been struggling with for several months now. I have tried on my own to do these two things, but have been unsuccessful. Therefore, I am looking for some external motivation and encouragement. The following story will explain a little more.

Today I went to Temple Square with the boys. I ran into this gentleman that looked like an ordinary man. I am not trying to be judgmental at all, let me explain him a little more. He looks as though he may be developmentally slow, he is in about his 40's-50's, and talks very fast. As he was helping me with something, he asked me my name and began to ask questions. "Are you LDS?" "Did you serve a mission?" "Do you know the scriptures well?"
He also quoted Joseph Smith, if I remember right, saying something along the lines of "motherhood is a noble mission." He quoted several scriptures, and quotes from prophets; mainly Joseph Smith. I was hoping to remember all the things he talked about, but now I can not. There is only one thing that I remember and have been pondering about since. He quoted the scripture from D&C that states that if the people are taught true principles they can govern themselves. He then talked about Joseph Smith's first vision of God the Father and Jesus Christ. Joseph's vision came about because of two things, reading the scriptures and praying. This stranger told me, "I believe that prayer and scripture study are the foundations of the gospel." He talked some more about how it is the simply things that get us through life.

This man has no idea who I am. I have met him once before but he did not remember. As he talked I struggled with keeping up with him and his thoughts. At the very end the Spirit touched me, I was told to listen to what he was saying. I almost started crying as I stood there talking to him. Heavenly Father has been telling me every day to read my scriptures, to pray. They are two very simply things to do. Unfortunately, I have allowed my depression to control me, my emotions, and spirituality. Heavenly Father touched a man doing a service already, to serve me specifically by talking about two very basic principles of the gospel. Prayer and scripture study. They are so basic one can easily forget the POWER they hold.

My hope by blogging about my journey, is that I may become the person I once was. The person I want to become. The wife, mother, sister, daughter, and friend, I want to be. Please, share your thoughts, questions, comments. I just need a little external push from family and friends.